Its better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.....right?!

Tonight I write just to get some things off my chest. One of my best friends(for years) and I have stopped talking(just since the summer) It really hurts me to think that someone I thought of as family can just dissapear from your life like that. Just up and not care anymore. I cannot imagine just letting someone go like that, therefore I wrote a letter of apology, although I do not entirely see this as being my fault, I want to move past it. To my dismay I have yet to hear any reply.
It all began with a shopping trip to the states in which we were all tired and cranky and ALL got on each others nerves....... fast forward to a few months later..... It is my best friends birthday and her boyfriend kisses one of our mutual friends. Well this does not involve me but I did try to avoid the other girl for a while and dissed her on occasion to my bestie. Months later I decided we were all mature adults and decided to quit the act and remain friends with our mutual friend, who was actually starting to grow on me and showed her maturity in the situation by comming to me first to discuss it.
Well aparently I was way off in thinking we were all mature adults, This past summer was my wedding to the love of my life and of course my bestie was involved in the wedding(or should I say was supposed to be) First she did not attend my bachelorette. But on the day of the wedding I was so dissapointed in her actions,that I felt were very selfish for the fact that this day was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. She was mopey and b**ched alot about the other girl having the nerve to come to our reception.It made it even worse when she(my best friend) and her boyfriend left the wedding early and did not attend the gift opening the next day. (not to mention the boyfriend was the best man)
Well that was the short version of the story. Now I always say there are two sides to every story and I have yet to hear hers and you won't get to so you are on my side!
I can understand being in a feud with a friend but this has gone on to long. Maybe we were never really as close as I thought, or maybe she was just not as invested in our friendship as I was. Whatever it is I was very saddened when ,in the past few months I lost two of my very close family members and she did not contact me. I may sound bitter but that drew the line.
Well it feels better to get that off my chest and I promise I will not write another post until I have something happy to say..lol!
And I remind myself for the hundredth time that it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all(which can truely be used in terms of many relationships, and many types of love and losses)